A note to my 8 year old inner child.

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Dear Inner Linda,

I know your there.

I can hear you crying.

I am so sorry that you have to keep talking about what happened to you. I know you’re scared. I know what he did has stomped on your spirit.

But the truth is little girl that the spirit never dies and one day soon you will be able to send out that spark of amazing creativity that I know you have, to make a difference in the world.

For now, just know that I will take care of you and if you need me to sing you a song or buy a toy or……….just listen…I am always right here for you.

Adult Linda

Pressed in every way!

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Did you ever have that feeling that you hit a brick wall when it comes to certain points in your life? I remember a scripture from the Bible that always gave me the strength to go on and move forward.

Its 2 Corinthians 4:8,9,  “We are hard-pressed in every way, but not cramped beyond movement, we are perplexed but not completely with no way out. We are persecuted but not abandoned, we are knocked down but not destroyed.” (New World Translation of the Holy Scriptures).

In the past, I used to feel trapped a lot! I felt trapped in a physical way of course by my father but I also now feel emotionally trapped and spiritually stuck! I feel unable to move forward. I am confused.

I have therapy tomorrow and I will have time to try and work this out with my therapist but I know that its only 50 minutes long. I feel scared that I still might not know why this is all happening to me when I leave.  Why now?  What is happening right now, that is causing all this distress?

There might as well be a brick wall in my way even though there is really nothing there.

My emotions are so strong right now that the only way to describe this, is running right into a brick wall and that hurts. That hurts physically and emotionally and metaphorically speaking,  I need damage control. But I don’t know how to get that or how to find a way around the wall.

I will just sleep on it and I am almost sure that it’s possible that I might feel different in the morning.

Thank goodness for the wisdom from Gods word the Bible because I know that I am not stuck,” completely with no way out”.

Linda