Bad things can invade our lives, leaving disaster in their wake. Locked out or locked in, it does not matter when they come to infect my day. Fear is validated through my allowance to let it exist at least temporally until such time as it is necessary to start facing this fear without running away. Courage is moving through the trauma despite the fear.
I have been having a much-needed break from therapy and working on this trauma from my childhood. It is important to take care of myself. That might mean stepping back a bit if it is all getting overwhelming. This has happened to me from time to time.
Working on the trauma of any kind is far from easy and it’s not something that can be rushed. I have tried that with disastrous results and it set me back so far that I ended up in the hospital. I know now to take my time. It really does not matter how long it takes. The abuse affected my entire childhood and it stands to reason that it would have a big impact on adult life as well.
I am going to give myself credit for working on these difficult memories because it does take courage and great strength to be in this recovery until the end of it. I have come so far now and I am not giving up.
I have seen positive results from sticking with it no matter how much it frightens me or no matter how much it hurts.
I am a survivor and so much more!
So are you!